Today I didn’t feel like writing. I felt blocked, slightly irritated, a little bit guilty as well. But I knew I need to do it. I knew I need to keep on going, I knew that commitment is everything in what I do. I knew there’s currently no space for ‘ifs’ and ‘maybes’ in my life. Even when nothing seems to make sense we have to go on.
After some careful self-examination, I understand these feelings have their roots in fear. A lot of what I do makes me have to put myself out there, and oftentimes that is scary as hell. Fear of ridicule, fear of judgement, fear of failure. It is as if all the old ghosts are going loose and making a damn party in my head, out of my fears. And the more I postpone certain tasks that feel difficult to me, the more the seed of insecurity grows. When you find yourself entertaining self-doubt, it is time to change the game. Because everything you feed, grows.
I went to a Yoga class, I went for bike stroll, I had coffee at a new place, and I’ve been trying to connect with myself. I know that if I can get back to this sacred space of truth within me – where there’s peace and trust – I can perform any task, no matter how demanding it is.
So I’m back to the uplifting stuff: this week’s cultural events. Don’t forget that every event includes a link to its website, and free events are signaled as well. To get updates please like Amsterdive’s Facebook page. And if you did it already, you have a place in my heart, of course.
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